please put on this music while reading the thread, it is part of the post but i don't think i can upload audio files
Jeru The Damaja - Ya Playin' Yaself (Instrumental)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6maJ-hct_p4
i fought about using calendar for many years but now that i am using a paper system (that would look like a calendar to the untrained eye) to manage my time, i finally feel the benefits of distributing my time wisely again. i experimented with this before, this is me going back to what i have already experienced and after thinking about it subconsciously for years.
to have a banking account as to make sure that all my money is accounted for while not having a way to wisely use the time feels idiotic. time is the currency. money is not currency, money is the impostor. time needs to be spent more wisely then money. time isn't money, money is the dirty trick invented to make people give up their actual currency.
i was very worried that planning my life more would result in me becoming something i'd hate but i am just amazed at how much i get done in one day. i've had too many days where i would get nothing done.
could be because of the few tweeks i made to the system. i built a custom time planner in LibreOffice and printed out the resulting page 20 times. is nothing but a big empty table that streches across the whole page with the numbers 0 to 23 printed in each line in the middle with space left and right of each hour. papersize is A4. the smaller size A5 was too small, it felt to little room to write something in between the lines.
is there a way to make it better? this system seems pretty good to me. i have a big page BIG PAPER PAGE for every day that i can collect ideas on what to do next and also keep track of what i am actually doing because the mere act of being mindful of it, trains me to value time more.
so what i plan to do goes on the left
what i actually end up doing goes on the right
and then i use colored pens to visualize the stuff i want to be mindful of:
how much i sleep
how much i exercise
little ideas i have throughout the day
what i eat when
what i drink
lol i should track how much i poop. probably 2 times a day.
so i hope you can tell this is not just a calendar, it is a calendar that is also a diary at the same time but in a practical sense, not in a "express your feelings so you can keep them alive for longer so you can milk more depression from them" kind of sense.
i dunno how to explain how good this feels, it is just to have a self-created tool that helps me actually get all the things done i wanted to do. just this mindset of valuing time and treating it like the rare precious resource that it and only it deserves to be.
when i was younger i would eat these self-help audiobooks up though i just listen to them the way others listened to music, barely ever implementing anything i had learnt, just being a passive lifeless consumer of the information. this new paper hybrid calendar feels like i finally have some kind of mental infrastructure that i can build upon as to (at least have the option to) practice goal setting.
i hated the idea of goal setting for a long time but another perspective on it would be to simply value time, treat it like it is everything. compared to how imporant this is, everything else pales. don't worry about how you spend your money before you have taken the time to learn how you spend your time.
what this boils down to in terms of the paper planner is that i INVEST MINUTES into things.
heard some new software i have to look into,
>i spend 5 minutes on it! (╯°□°)╯ ┻━┻
i want to build an appliance because i have gotton so spoiled, the shit i can buy is no longer good enough
>spend 20 minutes on it 💪