merry Xmas guys. its a few days after Christmas but I'm still going to put this out there. I haven't seen my family in years, I miss them a lot. we had a falling out over the craziest shit. when I was 15 I think I saw aliens in the woods. it scared the heck out of me, being a dumb kid I told my mom. she decided I was insane and proceeded to drug me for years and when this wouldn't take, and I never changed my story she had me institutionalized. I'm not crazy, I saw what I saw which was little grey scary looking guys about 3.5 ft tall. I saw them I absolutely did. never had any thing like this happen since, I seen some weird lights in the sky, stuff I thought were satilites but then they started moving in ways satilites don't move. not sure about this, but I've never seen any creatures since. anyway this was 25 years ago, its been hard living with out my family. xmas's suck, this shit ruined my life. I miss my family so much but I may be fucked because they still think I'm nuts. I pretty much never tell anyone about this because its just such a strange story. if you guys pray send me a prayer, its horrible. I have this huge whole in my heart where my family should go, they tried to tough love me into taking lithium or some shit because they are dumb and wouldn't know real crazy if Charles Manson was eating fruit loops in their living rooms. pray for me, if I wasn't an idiot I would have just changed my story but it would kill me on the inside to lie and so I never changed my story. I need my family or a nice gf? I'm sourounded by strangers and its been years since I heard anyone say they loved me. I can walk for days and have gone over 3 weeks fasting, I can take just about any kind of pain or challenge but this thing with my family is grinding me down, like the grand canyon I've slowly been worn down to a shadow of the person I once was. pray I get the love I need and maybe this will give me the strength I need to kick a bit more ass. if I could get my family back and they would listen to me , and believe me that I'm not crazy because I saw some weird shit in the woods when I was kid. I feel crazy just writing this, I never tell anyone. I know how it sounds, but I'm in pain and I cant take it for ever. thanks.